distilling dreamy

 i had a dream
were we eating berries, something small.
we were monkey people and i knew that we were some of the first humanoids
 
and
 
the differences in all the other monkey people were stark..
and also there were other animals here and there.
 any ways
 
i was looking at you
and you kinda looked like you, but like base genes in monkey form.
and you were screaming like a monkey,
not over anything,
and then a monkeyish man came and fucked you. and then another.
dont get offended let me finish
i had this insight then that promiscuity, or sluttyness, gave an advantage because
the mate selector was low and it allowed all genes a chance to continue to try them selves out. unsatisfied, or even truly tested, with only one run.
and in the dream i had the thought to kill you all
but that was before the inisght
after i had that thought of violence the insight came...
and then i turned around,
and the dream changed.
now...
the reason i felt the kill
was because i felt threatened
the act of the sexuality was violent,
not like abuse,
but was like rape kind of?
best way i can describe it is rape you learn to to accept...
any ways
the dream impacted me huge
cuz it was vivid.

when the dream changed
i saw you agian
or at least what i associated with you
and it was a mouse
and the insight was further, it was like...
there was this force seeking to outdo the threats of nature
and evolve life
and it made no mistakes..
any ways i felt like the offspring would be a threat to me,
like they were going to become greedy and mindless.
i wanted to protect you before it all started to happen but it did not seem appropriate.

Monkey